Community - " From Amsterdam To Amritsar "
Posted by Preet Mohan S Ahluwalia on Monday, 9/20/1999 9:46 AM MDT
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"Don't consider the Golden Temple just a building, it is a dynamic piece of art which has the power to move an active and living nation." (Ref. EOS, S.S. Alag)
Experiencing Sikhism (Valerie Clerc)
Why I Embraced Sikhism?
Khalsa Path For A Sikh Convert (Gurfateh Singh)
Miracle During World War II
Deliverance From The Brink Of Death
An Atheist Into A Sikh...In A Flash (Harjit S. Lakhan)
Triumph Of Tribalism: Sikhism At The End Of the 20th Century (Loren Chan Singh)
On Being A Sikh (Balvinder Singh Bal)
Life With The Lions (Balvinder Singh Bal)
Grandma And The Panth (Balvinder Singh Bal)
Golden Temple Guestbook Entries Part I
Golden Temple Guestbook Entries Part II
Golden Temple Guestbook Entries Part III
An Afghan Pilot's Salute To The Golden Temple
Golden Temple: A Virtual Tour
Ownership Of Amritsar
Poem: Amritsar (Translated From French)
Abstract Of Sikh Studies
Recently Ms. Valerie Clerc had shared her experience as a Sikh woman. She had also requested others to share their experiences especially those who were not born to Sikh parents and have embraced the Sikh faith.
The author, formerly Cornelis Heule, a Dutch businessman, recounts his experience to the holy city of Amritsar.
FROM AMSTERDAM TO AMRITSAR
After hesitating for two years and last minute refusals to face the reality that I had given up my apartment, my job, my life in Amsterdam, and atleast for one year all those who I love and care for, even those who I took for granted until I realized how much I would miss even my favourite barmaid, I left Amsterdam.
And what is the program, what is the plan? One year in India, and atleast for that year no drinking, no smoking, a year of thinking about me and the rest of my life. Go to Amritsar and find about those intriguing Sikhs, go to McLeod ganj and find out more about those Tibetan Buddhists. Go to the Himalayas, hire a donkey, a horse or a combination of the two and go on a long trek. Will that fill a year, will I be happy, will I really be able to give up the booze? Will I be able to live with the Indians who never leave one alone? Will I not go completely bonkers and crawl up against the wall after one month? And what about my health, and what about my friends, girlfriends?
But I'm going, I'm going to do it, I am going to show them that there is still life in this old body and not-so-old mind. To hell with them and their 2-3 children, their second motor car and their rat race. I am different, I do not need a wife, a God, a job, stability. I am strong and independent, and above all I do not need God, and I can give up the booze without any help. Or can I?
And thus we land at New Delhi airport on the morning of January 10, 1996, only some 4 hours later than scheduled. It is bright and sunny, and rather cold. I pay far too much money for a cab to a far too expensive hotel. Inspite of being exhausted I go out for my first walk and meet my first "sadhu", meet my first Kashmiri hawker, get an unwanted but unrefusable ride into town by some dodgy fellows, walk around Connaught Place and get an autoscooter back to my hotel. There is a real shower with hot and cold in the room and a television, this is going to be the last room like that in a long time! Next day to Pahar Ganj, to a hotel off the main market, first 300 rupia for a three bedded room just for me, with windows and attached bathroom, then 200 rupia for two bedded same without windows and finally 200 rupia for two bedded with windows and excellently positioned opposite the flat roof where they keep the dogs that bark all night. I can also hear the horns of the diesel locomotives at New Delhi station, all ni
Things are wonderful and very rotten. Wonderful because I enjoy the lepers, the cows, the hawkers, the elephants, the soothsayers, the Hindu mandirs, the camels and the down and out Western hippies. My heart is pinched by seeing kiddies doing very unhealthy looking jobbies on the pavement next to an overflowing drain and crores of smelly two-wheelers, old cars, trucks and buses passing by, but still I love it. Rotten because I have the big one: spending loads of time in the loo with a bucket of water in front of me. Going for a meal and after being served and eating two bites leaving in a hurry because I get the feeling of vomiting (as the Indian doctor put it). But with the help of the nice Kashmiri boy I find the aforementioned doctor, get antibiotics and get cured. And I take a very serious haircut, because in this hot climate and insufficient hygenic facilities I might as well.
I get myself out of Delhi and go to see this Golden Temple. And do not sleep very much, and am rather speedy without the drink. A non-drinking me, Dutch by birth, Irish by choice, can it be done?
Of course I pay way too much for my train ticket to Amritsar and get unwanted luxury. We only arrive 30 minutes late and I am abducted by a cycle rickshaw-wallah to a crummy hotel, charging 150 rupia + 10% tax and not offering too much in return apart from drunks that gather in the dining room every night. The light is beautiful, the days are very clear, the air is of an almost transparent light blue that in NW Europe only appears on very rare winter days.
And on January 19, 1996, Cornelis Heule, a mere 48 years of age makes his first appearance on the parkarma of Harmandir Sahib. And I am bowled over. The music that is broadcast from the gold top building in the middle of the square pond ("sarovar") that surrounds it, is divine. The beautiful light is there, the marble walkway ("parkarma") around the sarovar, the white buildings around that. I spend 4 hours just sitting there, not going into the actual temple at all. And day two I come back for more, and again spend 4 hours, drinking in the atmosphere. Babaji speaks to me, the man who I will get to know very well later, and he points out the four open doors of the temple, welcoming everyone from all creeds, castes, directions. And I decide to leave my hotel and move into the (free) Ram Das Niwas (guesthouse) of the temple itself. And thereby seal my fate.
In the far corner of room 43 in the dormitory of Guru Ram Das Niwas was a heap of bed clothes, and underneath those was Audrey, Dutch, black, Christian. She took me to the temple, she took me to the ceremony of bringing the Sikh holy book into the temple, and she took me for a Christian as I was reading the Bible. We got on very well and drank in the atmosphere of the place, told each other that the Sikhs were great and got intoxicated on the good vibes. We went for a meal, and we went and talked, and I was speedy and could not sleep. But I was winning. After Audrey there were the Germans, Stephan and his wife, their friend Peter from Tienen in Belgium, John from the North of England who had given up the drink too and was busy cycling from the North Cape to England going the long way around, Elizabeth from Anchorage, the reformed drunk from Ireland (does not even take a sweet containing liquor in future) and I talked, went to the temple morning and night, was speedy and could not sleep.
Some nights I fell asleep utterly exhausted only to wake up after a few hours, and thoughts would start milling through the head again. Sometimes I was awake all night until at dawn I fell asleep, exhausted. And what went on in my mind was incredible, images from the past I hoped I had long forgotten, images from yesterday and even those from tomorrow. There was no stopping it, there was no stopping me. I talked, talked, I talked at a hundred miles an hour, and I could not sleep. I went to the temple at 5 am for bringing in the Guru Granth Sahib (Sikh Holy Book) and at night at ten I took it to it's room again. And why? Did I believe in God? There was no need to believe in God, whatever God is, I felt the presence in me and around me from day one. Was I a Sikh? No, but I was becoming one.
One day I was sitting behind the temple, and all of a sudden I started crying, and felt great at the same time, and the next day it happened again. And whenever I felt those massive copper bars of the "palki" in which we carried the Guru Granth Sahib on our shoulders I felt something like an electric current going through me. And finally one night after fervently praying (me! praying!) and asking for peace of mind I walked back to the dormitory and was sudedenly overwhelmed by the ultimate heebee jeebees. I had to drink, I had to smoke. All the devils from the seven hells were shouting at me: drink, drink, smoke, smoke. And I ran, I ran to find my friendly Babaji, who of course was not in his room, I ran back to my room and there was no one there, I went to the room next to me and flug myself on an American (imagine!) who was great, did not say much, but just was there. And after 30 minutes I quitened down, and that was it, the final act. I was not a drunk anymore and I knew that something, someone was out th
ere, playing games with me, and nasty ones at that, but, I was cured.
Still I knew nothing about Sikhism, and I definitely did not know what God is. I started reading Sukhmani Sahib, a part of Guru Granth Sahib, I started reading Guru Nanak's Japuji Sahib and Guru Gobind Singh's Jap Sahib, and through their meditations on God learned that even the Gurus, who were so close to God, were more sure of what God is not, than of what God is. And I learned about meditation. I learned that this indescribable, un-understandable God was everywhere, in waters, on land, in you and me, in a worm and an elephant, that God was definitely not an old man having a long white beard living in a place called heaven, that God was One, that God is not linked to any religion, country or nation, that God has no family, that we cannot make any pictures or portraits of God, and that whatever we do, we should keep God in mind. And there is no use in retiring from the world and contemplate your navel. Live in the world but be not ruled by hunger for money or sex, be not ruled by anger and pride, and recogni
ze all humans as your brothers and sisters, all of the universe as His manifestation.
Everyone is welcome in the temple, everyone has the right to believe in his own way, but if you want to be a Sikh you will have to wear the 5Ks, as ordained by Guru Gobind Singh in 1699. First I thought that if that is what it takes I will do it, although I do not see why. Later I discovered that having to face the world as a very recognizable Sikh, you will have to live up to the Sikh standards: be honest, be fair, be compassionate, and travelling to the Islamic Republic of Pakistan and facing all the Muslims successfully, does add to your self confidence. Do not have personal pride, but be proud to be a Sikh. And, we cannot be like St. Peter, we cannot deny what we are, and have to face the questions and sometimes the mockery. Does you the world of good!
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