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Summary of Question:	Changes And Forgiveness
Category:	Other
Date Posted:	Friday, 5/13/2005 12:09 PM MDT

sat siri akal- firstly, I'd like to say what a great job you're doing on this site- keep up the great work!

I'm 14 and had just found out last year that I had psychosis- it's been a rough time for me and my family. I'd always yell at everyone and stay in my room, isolating myself. I began cutting my arms whenever I got mad at people and there are some scars that won't go away. Just recently I had cut my hair and I'm the only one in my family to do so- I feel guilty about it sometimes because I know how badly my dad wanted me to keep my hair, the reason I cut it was because it all began falling out and I had tried a lot to keep it from doing that but nothing worked, so I promised my dad that I'd only cut it this one time.

But lately, I've began changing a lot- I go to the temple more, I'm going to ask my dad to teach me more punjabi, more history and hindi- I'm trying my best to be healthier, and helping more around the house. My psychosis has gone down and I've even started doing school work again- my parents and I are also making plans to go to India this summer. I'm thinking about starting to work next summer as well, and I'll be able to go to school by this september.

My question is:

After cutting my hair and doing all the bad things I've done to my family and friends, and after that point where I stopped going to gurdwara and stopped listening to my dad do paath every morning, (I haven't even forgiven myself completely) will God forgive me?

Thank you for your time.

-S.K.D

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Sat Siri Akaal. Of course God will forgive you. The Narayan shabd says it: "Narayan saad saad bakshind, narayan keenai sukh anand." The Lord is the forgiver of all and peace-giving to all.
However, have you forgiven yourself!? You are only 14. You are on the path to healing. Do not carry the burden of your past on your shoulders. Give it to God, for even (when you are) in your psychosis, you are still God's own.
Guru ang sang,
-DKK