wjkk wjkf. this is for the person who wrote about thinking they are going to kill themself. PLEASE pyaria do not do this. u r just going through a tough time and u will make it through. become amritari and practice all the things that the five beloveds tell u to do and ur life will be the best ever. god loves u alot even tho u hate such a beautiful thing. god does not punish u. god NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER ETC.. punish u. u punish ur self. that can all change. please gods loving creature, do waheguru simrin. it is the best medicine ever. do as much as u can it will get u in a happier mood, u will wanna help people,u will be succsessful in ur job etc..,and u will just feel better and stronger. go to guru nanaks house (gurdwara) all the answers to ur problems are there. do alot of paat and u will be better. u will make it through this tough time. u can do it and i no u can. u r a special person and everyone knows that. c'mon u can do it, u have the power, do waheguru simrin, get amritari, practice sikhism, u can do it. my prayers will be with u. WAHEGURU JI KA KHALSA WAHEGURU JE KE FATEH!