The story about Angad, my grandson...it was midnight late, one o'clock and Sant Gurmukh was sitting with me and we both were talking just in a very loving, cordial ecstasy. All of a sudden he removed his turban and said, "Hey, raise my kundalini." I said, "What's wrong with you?" He said, "Just do it." Surjhee, kundalini surjhee. You know that Kundalini Surjhee, that shabad? I said, "Look, now you are more than 85, 87 years old. What marrow is left in the bones that now Kundalini has to do what? I don't want your bones to heat up and crack up." He was sitting down. First we were both sitting on sofa talking, you know, on one side I was sitting, and he was sitting, and we were talking. And he jumped down and did the whole thing. I couldn't believe it. I mean, I was shocked. He said, "No, no, no. You just touch my head and it will happen." I said, "I can't do it. I know you know the trick, but I have to ask forgiveness." He said, "You know, I'm going to come to America. I'm going to die here and then I'm going to be born in somebody's house around you and then I will see whether you raise my kundalini or not." So when Avneesh was pregnant, I told her, I said, "Don't worry, we know what it is all about." I was to go on tour. She said, "Papaji, give the name." I said, "This is the name." Then they did that sonogram, whatever that is, to check it is a boy or a girl. They found it out it is a boy. So they were very befitting. Because normally I say, "If it is a girl, use Kaur." Okay, that got solved. And then I told them, there is a one sign this boy will have. When he wants to eat, that's it. Not a minute less. Otherwise he will never cry. So far, so good. Very majestic little child. Knows what he is or who he is. And very lucky. His governess, you know, is very beautiful. God bless her. She takes him to sadhana. She takes him to everywhere. I mean, he is totally free. Even I was not that divine, you know? I had limitations. But he is pretty free. And you know my polar bear son, Ranbir, you know him all, who doesn't believe in anything other than what he wants. Specific specimen of a Virgo. Even he changes diapers and I can't believe that. That's something very real to me. God is a totality. And whosoever has patience, God pays him the dividend. God is limitless, timeless and Infinite but does prevail through the limit and appears in experience to the one who meditates in whatever one meditates on. If you want to see God, just see the light, It will be light. If you want to see God appear in a bursting star, it will happen. In my whole life I was challenged once. I trusted a man, thinking he was a man of God, and it was not true. He WAS a man of God and everybody IS a man of God, but my expectation was too wrong. Let's put it that way. So it was my fault. So certain things happened. There are certain things which irritate me. I don't get mad, I don't get reactive, but I become cautious. That's my nature. When things are laid down in a limited fashion, you can never reach me. It's not that I'm not corrupt or I am corrupt. It's not that I am not holy or holy. It's not that I am limited or unlimited, it's not that I am wise or foolish. Don't worry about all that. It's not that I'm disgraceful or graceful, respectful or not respectful. That has nothing to do with me. Whenever you apply limit to me, it distorts me from that activity. I can't take a limited frequency. I have no chance. Because my job is to reflect truly. Come and get it. And when you restrict it or apply restriction, all I show is restriction, not what you are doing. We are what are you. That's how I know in my characteristic it is very inborn. So basically when I came with a lot of openness and faith to him and I saw so much restriction and so much, uh, the person just wanted to can me. And you know, I know yet people do not have that much tin to make a can where I can fit in. A lot of people have tried for all these years to can me. I mean, I am very aware of it, very conscious about. My greatest beauty of life is what you should have, one thing you'll learn from me, and that's my greatest beauty....."Don't ask me and I'll come through." And ask me and I'll start looking at it what you are asking. And you'll waste time, space and energy. Well, in this game what is called "life" he started very much limiting me. And one day I told him, "My Guru is Ram Das Guru, and I don't think you should do this to me." He said, "What is you mantra?" I never knew, so much on the spot this man will cleverly put me on. I said, "Wahe Guru." He said, "Guru Ram Das is your Guru?" I said, "Yes." He said, "Did HE give it to you?" I said, "I'll answer you tomorrow." Now the Guru has to give mantra in person. That's why five tattwas, five punj piara give you Guru Mantra in the presence of the Siri Guru Granth. It's a very scriptural thing. No one can baptize you. One man baptization is a person Guruship. Five is Infinite. That's why out of my kindness I taught you tattwa bhand yesterday. And if you can practice that, you can bring the world in the palm of your hand. Those things are not very smartly ignored, but if done, practiced, they look very little and simple, but they are very powerful. Anyway, we were staying at the mango farm and everyday our altar was burning, and you know, Krishna is so sincere. And she was freaking out. First day the altar burned and the idea was perhaps candle fell or something, but there was no such sign. Whole altar cloth, everything, burned. You know what did not burn? That paper picture of Guru Ram Das. It had no frame. It was just a paper picture. It was just stuck there. WHOLE thing got burned, even those things in which the candle was, they melted. They twisted. But that paper stayed there. And it shocked me. I said, "Perhaps it is a waxed paper." But no, so many things, when you are not together, it comes to you. Second day he asked me the question, so I was, the altar was again done, and I was there. Altar burned again. And I did not move. And I was chanting. That day there was no paper picture. Guru Ram Das was sitting. And what I was chanting? "Guru Guru Wahe Guru, Guru Ram Das Guru." I tried to correct myself, I couldn't do it. And then finally I saw that thing, whatever that thing was, smiling and the voice came, "Don't worry. You got it what he challenged you for. Go and tell him." I said, "My God," I mean to say, I was shocked. Krishna said, "Sir, the altar burned again." I said, "Don't talk about the altar. Let the whole house get burned. That's enough. We got what we want. I said, "Correct the whole thing." Oh, by the way, I said, "This picture, keep it there where it is." She put the whole cloth and everything was fine. Anyway, I went there and I said, "I'll like to touch your feet." And he said, "No, no, no, no." I said, "I'd like to touch your feet." He said, "No, no, you are just negative, fighting with me these days." I said, "Look, I'd like to touch your feet." He said, "I'll have to have five people to see it." So he did the PR, look, this great yogi who is freaking out, he is going to touch my feet, come in. Foolish he was. So he brought five people and I really touched his feet and bowed to him in real reverence. He said, "See now, Yogi Baba, this yoga is no good. Nam Simran, Nam Simran is the best." I said, "Yes, I do Nam Simran also. That's yoga too. Yoga gives you nam simran, nam simran gives you yoga. From where you got Nam Simran? From yoga to start with. Mantra gives you union." I said, "What is wrong yoga?" He said, "Again you are discussing it, after bowing to me?" I said, "You do not understand why I bow to you. Today I can tell you I saw, I experienced and I felt the Guru Ram Das in my presence. I would never have done it, and it could not have happened if you would not have challenged." I said, "You challenged me and this it." That's why when I am in a dire difficulty, dire, and normally I don't, you don't see me chanting that. When I feel that I am in a dire difficulty, confrontation is..... There was an elephant, he used to go across the river taking a flower to the temple and it is in the ninth Guru's slokas. One day he was taking the flower, normal as was routine, the crocodile caught him. You know, in water, crocodile is stronger than elephant. So crocodile pulled and pulled and pulled and pulled and pulled and pulled 'til the flower in that trunk came to be dipped and he was going to die because there was no air. And the elephant at that time cried, he said, "God, I know crocodile got me but this flower is for You. So let me give this flower and let me go away." And God came in appearance and tore up the jaw of the crocodile, freed him so he could do and lay the flower. So what I mean to say to you is that when I am in THAT kind of dire difficulty. I mean to say, Sat Simran gets even her parking area through Guru Ram Das and I have seen it so many times. I mean, you TALK of miracles. I SEE miracles. I went to a parking lot, it was all full. And I said, "Well, let us try somewhere else." She said, "No, Guru Ram Das will provide." And I said, "He is a parking attendant? What are you doing?" She said, "I think so." She took another round and right in front of us the car pulled out. Beautiful parking lot. She popped right there. So I mean, it is her personal Guru and she can use anyway she likes, I don't....but I am saying, when I am in that kind of dire difficulty at that time, I say, "Guru Guru Wahe Guru, Guru Ram Das Guru." And he always comes through. It has come through very well. But that's my personal private situation and I don't believe that you have to believe it or test it out, but try it sometimes. It works. So what I'm saying is that the experience is an experience. How that experience is, the man who cannot speak cannot speak. But if you give him sweet, chocolate or candy, he can (makes kissing noises) but he can't say what it is. How sweet, what sweet, that's what he makes this face. And you know also when you test that sweet that's what it is, but you can't explain. So that is how that experience is. Love is an experience. Love is not an expression. You are wrong. You all are wrong. Eighteen years I have seen you, I have met you, I have talked to you, and I hope one day before my death, you will say, "I experienced the love." You talk about love, not experience. Love is an experience. It is not expression. Love is so pure, it's not projection. It is so dynamic it has no dimension. And that's what God is. But whenever you apply love on action, good and bad, on projection, good and bad, on figure, good and bad, on beauty, sadness, happiness, all these millions of facets, "Kirtam naam kate tere jihbaa, Sat Naam teraa paraa poor balaa." Guru Arjan Dev (SGGS, p. 1083) "I recite the Name of God as I see Him through action. But 'Sat Naam' is Thy first Name, Primal Name." These are the actions, reactions, dimensions, limits, but when beyond the limitless there's an experience, that is called paraa poor balaa. From the Infinite of the Infinite, and beyond that, God, your Name is 'Sat Nam.' Now Sat Nam means literally 'True Name.' And people think 'True Name' is a Guru Mantra. No, it's not true. It is a panch shabad. Sat Nam is only panch shabad. Sa-Ta-Na-Ma. And it's beautiful if you understand the science of it, but people don't accept it. Even among Sikhs, you tell them what is Sat Nam, they tell you, 'Wahe Guru.' Some people won't even call 'Sat Nam.' They always call 'Wahe Guru.' Fanatics. But Sat Nam is beej mantra, it is right in the Mul Mantra. Ik Ong Kar Sat Nam....God has this whole creation of the God. Sat Nam is the beej. That is why Sat Nam is the beej mantra. But what I'm trying to explain to you, do any way you want to do, feel any way you want to feel, worship any way you want to worship....LOVE IS AN EXPERIENCE, NOT AN EXPRESSION. But you can experience it through expression. But the problem which I am trying to explain to you, which you aren't going to like it is, that love has no reaction. The law of maximum return, economic law, does not apply to love. You know, you can eat eight bananas and then somebody says, "All right, you eat eight bananas, you eat, then after that each banana will have one dollar, two will have two dollars, third banana will have three dollars, each banana will go proportionately up, so you can eat eight bananas, and after that you may say, dollar or no dollar, I can't eat." So law of limited return will apply to it. But love doesn't go for that. So whenever you feel, "He loves me. And now he hates me." It is not true. Love has returned himself to eighty degrees, like today's day is a hot day adn tomorrow will be there, night will be there, sun will be there, touching us but on the other side. Love and hatred, yes and no, me and you, it all means nothing but changing the side. Side. Security, insecurity. Security has insecurity on the other side. Insecurity has security on this side. Question is which side you want to be. So you blame things. I don't blame things. I blame you. Because it is you who is on the side which you don't want to be. You want to be insecure, go on the insecure side. Then do it. There's no jeopardy. There's no projection. The problem is, do you know you, your mind and your soul, or....it's very funny, last night somebody said, "Sir, I promise with you I'll not do it. I know I should not do it. I wanted to not do it. But tell me why I was doing it. Why I was urging to do it. Why I wanted to do it." I said, "Nothing. You didn't do it." He said, "But that was not what I was asking. I'm saying, 'why I wanted to do it at all?'" Because sometimes your mind overrules you. Your mind overreacts for you. And you are so dumb and numb that you don't do anything; you let the control go. It is called 'wildness of self-activity.' You totally go wild and many times you cause an accident. Sometimes you don't. Many times you do. You have nine holes. The outlet and inlet should be totally controlled. I'm not saying you should not have emotions or you should not have feelings. All I'm saying is, there's no place for the show. If you start showing your ruthlessness through ANY hole -- forget about chakra -- the net result will be that ruthlessness makes you ruthless. And gradually it will become a habit and it is the way people destroy themselves. It may stop you once without accident, twice, three times. One day you will be surprised, it will be a pure simple accident. When you are insecure and you do not know what to do, the only thing at this time to do is, don't do anything, including the insecurity. For whatever you don't know what to do, just also don't relate to the brace. And what will happen? You will shift the base. From insecurity, you will be in the realm of security. Now question is, I am poor. How I can become rich? A very practical formula. When you are poor, never say it or feel it or not act that way. You will become rich within forty days. That's a law. Because to the formless comes the form. Whenever you become Narayan, you will have lot of Lakhshmi. Because she's married to him. Don't act, feel, or say. Utter. Anything you don't act, feel or utter, you will have the opposite. That's called Law of Opposite. And that's why above that law is, when the pair of opposites do not work on you, then you are a yogi. I confuse lot of people. Some think I am a human, some think I am animal. Some think I am right. Some think I am wrong. God knows what they think. But they have the right to think. And I always think I am nothing. When I feel and understand I am nothing, then Guru Ram Das takes over. I have seen it. When I see I am something, it is MY sweat. It never works right. When I become zero, the One comes to my aid. It becomes ten. It is called the Law of Completion. Law of Completion is when you became Krishna, Kar-ish-na, you become zero. Krishna means zero. Ra-e-ma, Rama comes. Or you become Rama, Ra-e-ma, Rama means one. Krishna follows. Those words which say, "Lord Krishna, Lord Rama," doesn't mean anything. Actually thing sound current is, Krishna where entire universe to become shuniaa, zero, and Rama where one has created the sun and the moon. One created the duality and where the creation has come to zero. These are the two words. And out of that grew the mantra, "Wahe Guru." Great is the light which eats up the darkness. It is the Law of the Light. Where it goes, it eats up the darkness. You may go in room, you may see nothing. Just press the switch, light comes, and you see everything. There are two most powerful things in your world. Lever and lens. Lens solves the mystery because you cannot see, you can see. Lever solves the mystery which you cannot move, moves. And you have two mantras to it. You have two mantras to it. "Aad sach, jugaad sach, hei-BHEE sach, Nanak hosee BHEE sach." That is the lens mantra. And the lever is, which moves, "Aad sach, jugaad sach, hei-BHAY sach, Nanak hosee BHAY sach." Apply it any time and it works. That's why there is a little difference. In your limited power, you have the capacity to experience the unlimited. In your unlimited experience, you have the power to bring the Infinite to the limit of your experience. Now what else you want? I don't understand. Therefore, there is no crisis which you cannot cross. But crossing the crisis is the really a grit which comes from your courage which you have developed with the light of your soul and handled with the capcity of your mind and experienced with the presence of your physical body. And that concludes our summer course, CROSSING THE CRISIS. Those who give the gift, get the gift hundred time more. Those who bow the head, get the honor hundred time more. But those who give the head, get to be immortal. That's the law from the time of Infinite and it shall continue to the time of Infinity. Those who want to discuss their life with logic, reason, with neuroses and psychoses and what and what not, waste the most beautiful gift of God called life. Life is the most precious gift ever God could give. It has values. If you give the values of your life away, you'll get thank you letters. If you bow your head in grace to the place of grace, it is called the altar. Head should never bow other than the altar. Otherwise you don't have a head. And then it will give you hundred times grace you need, because you bow it at the place of grace. But when you give your head, you will get immortality, life to live forever. And this is the lesson which each person who belongs to any denomination, dimension in life has to live. How to give your head and not be dead. We'll talk about it next year if we'll be living. If not, then the heavens will talk to you in my place. And I'm personally very grateful. This summer was very, very heavy and hectic on me. They say things come from three sides but this time things have come from five sides. But what I have done, when I saw things coming from five sides, I have stopped counting the sides. That's how I survived. My ladies, Guru's grace be with you, and always was and will be. Therefore I feel, we are healthy, we are happy, and we are holy, and we are Khalsa in Training. Last line is very precious. It is very polite, but it is very practical. Always think... (because if you think what you think then there are problems. What you don't think, you don't think and what you think you don't think, that's not possible, what to think. And the way you don't think, how can you justify what you don't think, and when you do not know what to think...so it goes on, timeless, useless.) Always feel -- this is my last word to you -- always feel you are a Khalsa woman in training. Because that will have no place for guilt, no place for handicap. Trainee has no test to go through. It has every chance to learn, and be better. Always feel you are a Khalsa woman in training and training is for real. You can build up that mental capacity and physical flow with it and your soul shall shine like a billions of bright stars like suns. And everything will change in you. And that is all there is to it. In honor of the Bhai Darshan Singh, I would like to put his last tape on the tape which he made on my request. It is very beautiful, he did a job, and I just want to hear it to honor it. They sang this morning also. (Shabad is played.) This is the tape for our next year. (Shabad is: Jo Kirpaa Gobind Bha-ee --Guru Arjan Dev, pg. 124 in SGGS) (Tape is available from Golden Temple Recordings in LA.) (A shabad sheet is provided with every tape.) It is a tape double infinity. Please take it home. Don't bother about it. Take the amrit kirtan, take the page number from the Siri Guru Granth, read it in English, translate it, get it for you, listen to it. Next year is the year of '88. I intend to teach "Woman of the March, from Nothing to Everything." That is the subject. And we'll qualify ourself in all of the facets which bring us to nothingness and which qualifies to everything. We'll aspect and respect every aspect and all the energies, all the stars and their psyches and we'll go through the reference, stage by stage, piece by piece, and put the puzzle together. Subject, God permitting. MUDRA: But as far as this tape is concerned, it has those vibrations and whatever is nothing in your life, it can fill into everything. The words are beautiful, the naad is perfect, the projection is all right, the elevating power is good, frequency is right. And if physically I cannot be with you until next year, just remember the posture I can give you this year, too. In case things go wrong, practice this with the beat, with the posture. I need a volunteer. Can you come. Come on, come on, anybody. Come, come quick. No, no, stand straight, facing the girls. Widen your legs. Apply the yoga mudra in the back. All right? And now play the tape. Gobind - bha-ee, take the yoga mudra and touch the forehead. No, only when it speaks. (Tape is played while person demonstrates) All right, now you understand that? And by the end of the tape, you shall be a different person. I'm not challenging any time, but I'm very challenging today. Keep the distance more than 3 feet between the heels and stand firm. Apply the yoga mudra and when the sutra is chanted, bow down and then rise in between only the time when it's not chanted. And Bibi Bani make this to a tape and hand it over to me as a special gift. (SUMMARY OF MUDRA: Stand straight with the feet about 3 feet apart. Clasp the hands behind the back. As the sutra is chanted, bend forward and bring the nose between the knees, and the arms up over the head, elbows straight, in yoga mudra. Rise up to original position when the sutra is not chanted.) And I have given you the subject and I have given you the tape, I have given you the exercise also. My idea is, I am very prepared for not being here. And you should be also mentally prepared not feeling me in physical body. Because there are a lot of problems. Some think I am a man, some think I am an idiot, some think I am great, some think I am small. All those problems has to go away. I have to be what I am. And in a mental spirit, with my subtle body, I can do much better than in the physical limitations. So I'm not going to go anywhere but for you, you have to have the 3rd eye to see. You will not be in a position to see me with these two eyes. That's the only problem you will always have, and could have. So if by the next year you can't see me, open your third eye. It's your problem, not mine. I have given you the homework. So just remember, my dear daughters in divine, whosoever shall have a 3rd eye open shall see none but me. And that I'm not saying with an ego of a man or a male or an existent person. That is the privilege God bestowed on me as a Mahan Tantric and that is within this time and space is the only privilege. With two eyes you will always see me in duality. But with the 3rd eye, you always see me in reality. And if this is my last statement, so be it. I hope you will be healthy, happy and holy. Take care of it and wherever you go, give my personal love, because you have seen me, you have met me and you have talked to me. And remember when I wanted to ask you, "Let us go to Golden Temple, perhaps we'll never be allowed to go there?" You never valued it. I'm asking you again. Don't raise your false hope and your limitless appetite of getting things your way. What I'm asking you, time has come to elevate, time has come to be sure, because you hold the future of the children which shall change this world. Give them the values and let them know, never compromise....(I said it, say it in my words if you want to quote me) never compromise the grace at the cost of life it may be. If you can give your children that voice, inner-voice, you will have me in every child forever. That's where I live. That's what I am. And that's what I'm going to be. And that's what I shall be. After this introduction, have a nice day. END OF HIGHLIGHTS 7/31/87 YOGI BHAJAN SAT NAM!