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Summary of Question: | My Soul..... |
Category: | Gurbani |
Date Posted: | Sunday, 7/27/2003 5:26 PM MDT |
First and foremost i would like to thank everyone on this forum who helps peopole like and many others to find answers to their questions, helps fuel others curiousities and just in general thank you for doing such a great seva to many of the sikhs and non sikhs in this world.
My question is more of motivation and of soul.....i am not an amrithdari sikh and i am very very far from being the perfect sikh girl, but one thing i know is that i have always had my faith and waheguru has been with me through my life in every single moment.
HOwever, recently like in the past year..i feel that my faith is trailing off..i feel so bad because this is not how it should be......when i have cried inmy life...when i have laughed or enjoyed my life..anything and everything god has always been by my side and has answered my every prayer and given me something that no person in this world or any coudl even begin to give me.
I dont know why but lately i havent been doing much paath and listening to gurbani....in the past many years...this was something i did very very frequently and with 100% faith and now i feel like something inside me is empty and that something is missing.
ARE there any types of or particular baani's i could read/meditate or do some particular paath that will guide me back towards guru ji and his light..i just feel so empty because i feel that god is leaving my life and i know he isnt the one leaving but that i am walking away from it. I really want to find some way or do stick to some routine that will me back on a good path and be able to do paath and listen to gurbani as i did before..maybe even more.
I have gone through alot of changes in the past year, such as i have moved to another country, started medical school(in a country/place where there is a lack of a sikh sangat and gurudawara) and have met and dealt with lots of new/different things..and i know sometimes the "lack of time" is the problem but i know with a true sevadar of god...there is not "time" ...we should be able to make time at any time and at any points in our lives...i feel bad when i think that i am not even a full career women yet and just because i am busy i am forgetting god...i knwo there are millions of doctors, lawyers and succesful people out there who find time for god and praying , no matter what.
Could you please suggest to me particular pages from SGGS that i should focus on to regain my faith to regain my interest and just something that will help me feel stronger about my life, my faith and my soul..i just feel like something is really missing.
Please help me..any comments , suggestions or help would be really really appreciated.
Thank you for reading and for listening.
God bless...RAbb rakha
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Medical School can be hard on one's spiritual growth, because it is so mental and "scientific" oriented. I would read Japji everyday but really focus on the meaning of the words for you. Also, get Gurbani tapes or CDs and keep them playing in the background...even when you sleep if possible, to get that Naad back into your consciousness. Bless you. GTKK