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Summary of Question:	What Does God Think About Me?
Category:	General Sikhism
Date Posted:	Monday, 5/03/2004 6:15 PM MDT

Hi, I have a weird question. I feel very lost. I have a very stressful life. I go to school, work, and have to take care of household matters. My mom is ill and my dad is a heavy drinker. I have five siblings but they really didnt have to take on any matters concerning the house. I am 22 and I feel like I am 50, my hair is starting to turn white. This has been a stressful last few months. I am starting to get fat again. I do go through depressive states. I know that there is a reason that I have to take the responsibilty of everything. My parents are unable to. They have done so much for us. But I feel like, I am trapped in a box. There is so much tension in our house. We are not very close to each other emotionally. Its seems like its only me and my mom who are trying to make things better for us all. The only time I am happy is when I am in the gurdwara. I go often and I always lizten to Gurbani. I try my best in everything that I do. But most of the time I feel that I am letting everyone down. Even though I am constantly trying to get things done, I still feel this. At times I wonder why I am the only one in my family who is stressing out, because the rest of them "just dont care". I wonder why God put this into my destiny. I think God did this because he knew that someone had to stand up in our family to take charge, and he felt I was the one. ( Am I right). I wonder if God is happy with me, am I doing things right. I try to be the best person that I can. I admit that I do make mistakes but, I learn from them. What does God think about me?

(REPLY)Sat Nam. You ask your question as if God were a person with opinions. Don't you understand that God created you, and lives and breathes in you out of Love and God is experiencing His creation through you? We each are given the opportunity of a human life, given a body and a mind in order to work out the karmic lessons our soul needs to be able to ultimately merge back into the One God, the source of all life. You have some heavy karma right now, and if you are doing the best you can do, that is all that anyone including God (!) can expect of you. It's not the life that matters, it is the courage that you bring to it. So do your duty, try to be kind and loving (even when/if others are not) and make the Guru your companion by chanting God's Name. Especially ANG SANG WAHE GURU to remind yourself at every moment that God lives in every atom of your being. When you bow to the Guru, offer your head along with all your problems, and ask for help to handle everything. I know things are hard on you now, but try to take a positive view of every circumstance as a lesson to be learned. May God bless you and Guru guide you to be healthy, happy, and filled with the awareness of God's love for you. SP