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Summary of Question: | How Do I Make Myself Forgive God? |
Category: | Love & Marriage |
Date Posted: | Wednesday, 8/13/2008 3:19 PM MDT |
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Sat nam. (1) I think you need professional counseling and grief support. Your husband had a karm that was written before he met you. Your bhuaji was not right, because she (seems to) believe that BECAUSE HE WAS HINDU this tragedy has happened. Not true at all! Your beloved's death is really between his soul and God, and your marriage to him did not generate this tragedy. I'm sure that wherever he is, he loves you very much, and wants you to heal and move on.
You two loved each other. Think of that gift! Losing a husband and a baby does a number on your mind and hormones. This can create a chemical imbalance that may need some help to get back to balance, so see an MD and tell him you are so depressed (the flip side of anger) and ask for a hormone level check. Hating God for the fact that all of us experience karms, pain, loss and death is understandable.
You are spot on that you cannot live your life with so much hate and I will add that God & Guru love you very much and do have a plan for you. There is NO FAULT here. Life happens, death happens. Please listen to as much bani or kirtan as you can to help your mind heal, and get SUPPORT (someone other than your bhuaji, please). Guru ang sang,
DKK