Thanks for sharing all that. It means a lot to me and i hope it is useful to others too. I think one of the major points here that we all deal with is that we were born into sikhism, few of us ever found it for
ourselves, on a very deep level at least.
Sitting here in Espanola for the past five years a lot of times i feel like "i didn't land in sombrillo, sombrillo landed on me". I am planning on going to college in Florida next fall. One thing, i think
that will make it a lot differnt for me is that i'm older and will not be trying to fit in as much, i am also starting of at a community college, so it won't be nearly as tight of a social situation. I may go
to a university later on if i can get the funding together.
Right now my hair and beard feel very natural to me. I like it. I can't really imagine myself without it. As far as woman go, i think to myelf that i wouldn't want a woman who judges me on my facial hair
anyway. Even if it means spanking the monkey for the rest of my life. Then again i've been in espy for the past five years and my whole life i've been somewhat sheltered from the "outside" social world.
It's very interesting and useful to me the thoughts you went through. I also am curious about what other people went through. If you look at the numbers, most who have gone to college don't have uncut hair anymore. Is this because it was never valued that much in the first place, was something lost inside that maybe was there before or maybe that is life? I'm almost looking forward to that aspect of going to college because i want to see how i am challanged and how i deal with it. I am convinced that either way, i will move myself ahead as an individual and become more in touch with who i am.
Another thing i think is very relevent here is courage. Courage to oppose the status qou as well as courage to be who you want to be despite what others want from you.
"I've been reading MLK's "autobio" (somebody else compiled it, but they are calling it an auto). Anyway, one paragraph in particular i felt was truly relevent here in regards to courage and living your life fully. Please do not take this as a lecture to keep hair anybody, it is just thought provoking.
I say to you, this smorning, that if you never found something so dear and so precious to you that you will die for it, then you aren't fit to live. You may be thirty-eight years old, as i happen to be, and one day, some great opportunity stands before you and calls upon you to stand up for some great principle, some great issue, some great cause. And you refust to do it because you are afraid. You refuse to do it because you want to live longer. You're afraid that you will lose your job, or you are afraid that somebody will stab you or shoot at you or bomb your house. So you refuse to take a stand. Well, you may go on and live until you are ninety. And the cessation of breathing in your life is but the belated anouncement of an earlier death of spirit. You died when you refused to stand up for your right. You died when you refused to stand up for justice......
Don't ever think that you're by yourself. Go on to jail if necessary, but you never go alone. Take a stand for that which is right, and the world may misunderstand you, and critisize you. But you never go alone, for somewhere i read that one with God is a majority. And God has a way of transforming a minority into a majority. Walk with him this morning and believe in him and do what is right, and He'll be with you even until the consumation of the ages. Yes, I've seen the lightning flash. I've heard the thunder roll. I've felt sin breakers dashing, trying to conquer my soul, but i heard the voice of jesus saying, still to fight on. He promised never to leave me alone. never to leave me alone. No, never alone. No never alone."
Anyway that rang very ture for me and my life. For others it may be a bunch of dog shit. Peace to you Gurpreet. I think you have a lot of